13 April 2010

Maybe, I made you up.


What should I tell you? What is worth telling? Can I tell a story about forgetting?

I have always meant to write about you. Always. But you are difficult to write about. I remember too little; and on some days, I remember too much. A paragraph, a line from a poem, a sentence that is missing a punctuation — these are all I have of you. I think you’re a story not meant to be told. Or maybe, you are a story unformed. Or maybe, you are not a story yet. Maybe you never will be.

I thought about you today. There is space in my heart that is solely for the pain of no longer sharing stories, laughter, islands, and water bottles with you. This pain is duller now, and that is as it should be. There will be other stories – ones that do not hurt to tell – and if the subject of you ever comes up, I know the best I could come up with would be that you never happened; that I made you up.

Because you see, I am here.

You are not.

(written by Chin Villamor, posted with permission)

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Sad, isn't it?

If you know me enough, you'd know I like things with tinge of sadness in them.
Sad movies, sad songs, sad stories. And I don't mean the mushy, corny, irritating-telenovela kind of sad.
It's the good heartbreaking stories that I like.
And it's not even because I'm a sad person. I am NOT.
It's just one of those things that I like, like how I like karate and melted chocolates. :)

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Photo: Coffee at Sentro 1771, Serendra.

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konsuy April 13, 2010 at 4:25 AM  

your photos are a work of art. love this gyud. it went well with chin's post. perfect pair.

Meikah April 13, 2010 at 2:24 PM  

I agree with you, Ai! There are just some sad songs, sad stories that we appreciate, and it doesn't necessarily mean we are sad.

I like the sad song, "I Can't Cry Hard Enough" for no reason related to me at all! (Or perhaps at one point in my life, I can relate to it, but not anymore... still!) :D

Aileen Siroy April 14, 2010 at 12:01 AM  

konsuy said...
your photos are a work of art. love this gyud. it went well with chin's post. perfect pair.

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That picture is very simple. I guess, simplicity always works. :) Thank you, Chi.

Aileen Siroy April 14, 2010 at 12:03 AM  

Meikah said...
I agree with you, Ai! There are just some sad songs, sad stories that we appreciate, and it doesn't necessarily mean we are sad.

I like the sad song, "I Can't Cry Hard Enough" for no reason related to me at all! (Or perhaps at one point in my life, I can relate to it, but not anymore... still!) :D

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There's just something about sad stories and sad songs that touches the heart. I guess it's because we all know sadness. :)

I had to google the lyrics of that song, Mei! :D

Liza April 14, 2010 at 2:04 PM  

This is really sad. But oh, she writes so well! :-)

Olay April 14, 2010 at 7:05 PM  

i like this post...

Aileen Siroy April 17, 2010 at 2:30 AM  

Liza said...
This is really sad. But oh, she writes so well! :-)

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She does, Liz. And I think she should write a book. :)

Aileen Siroy April 17, 2010 at 2:31 AM  

Olay said...
i like this post...

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Hi Olay! Thank you.
Nice to see you here. :)

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